•11. May. 2011 • Leave a Comment

“Oh I’ve already done that.” “Whoa really? We just started 5 minutes ago!”

“Sorry, I’ve got kids.” “Oh sorry, I didn’t notice the double stroller that you’re pushing around.”

“Oh, sorry, I think I’m in a hurry.” “Oh sorry, I THINK I’ll talk to you later then.”

“I’m a local.” “Oh hey, so am I!”

“No, I’m not from around here.” “Oh hey, neither am I!”

“I’m sick of you guys!” “Oh hey, I’m sick of me too!”

“Oh, it’s too hot (or cold, or rainy, or windy, or breezy, or warm, or *insert any type of weather*)” “Oh sorry, I’ve only been standing out here in the same spot for 6 hours with no shelter…so I hadn’t noticed what the weather was like. Thanks for letting me know though!”

“I can’t, my kid is sleeping/crying/fussy.” “Oh sorry, I didn’t notice your big stroller with kids in it that are laughing and talking to each other.”

“Oh sorry, my feet hurt.” “Oh hey, so do mine!”

“Please no, I’ve already done that today.” “Oh sorry. I’ve done 100 just in the last 3 hours, so I understand.”

“Nope, I work here.” “Oh hey, I work here too!  What a coincidence! We should be friends!” “Nope, I work here.” “Oh hey, me too! What a coincidence! We should be friends!” “Nope, I work here.” “Oh hey…I would have stopped talking to you if it mattered.”

…the list goes on. and on. and on…

If only they realized what the voices in my head say.


Working with the public is such a pain sometimes.  Most times.

Smile. Be friendly. That’s what I’m told to do.  I do it, not because I’m forced to but because I love my job and I love where I work.  Even so, it does become heartbreaking to be looked at like a piece of week old bread or like a rotten gallon of milk.  It hurts to be treated like you are the scum of the earth; like you have an infectious disease that will kill anyone you look at.

There have been (and still are) plenty of times where I just want to quit right on the spot. “I’ve had enough!” is what I want to scream at the top of my lungs, but I digress and vent with my colleagues instead.  We can’t understand how people can be so cruel.  How they think that they know how to do our job better than us.  How they think we are useless and only end up bothering everyone around us.  It’s all these same excuses we get over and over and over (and over + infinity + 1).  They think we don’t know.  They think we don’t feel.  They think we’re too stupid to understand.  Well you’re wrong.  They’re wrong.  This is what I wish I could tell them (in a fun, poem sort of way):

Oh hello there.

I’m sorry if I have offended you or hurt you in any way.

I only wanted to ask you about your day.

Did you have a good day?

Did you have a bad day?

I promise I mean no harm.

I promise I don’t bite.

All I need to hear is a simple yes or a simple no.

No need to fuss.

No need to pout.

I only wanted to ask you about your day.

I hope you have a good day.


It’s been a rough year and a half.  Learning how to be more patient, how to let things go, how to stay positive, how to keep smiling, how to remain friendly, and how to find my purpose in spite of all the rejection and negativity.  But no matter how many times I’ve wanted to throw in the towel, I am reminded by someone (or something) that this is all worth it.  That what I’m doing is not worthless.  Sometimes it’s a fellow employee and sometimes it’s all the cool perks, but more often than not it’s a customer that gives me a renewed sense of purpose.  They’re the ones that take time to listen, that want to talk to you, that don’t judge you based on the way you look.  They have great stories, and I love listening to their stories.  Seriously.  However, even more often times than not, it’s their kids who keep me smiling.  It’s those moments where I get to interact with their kids, and ask them about their day and what they liked most of all.  They have amazing stories and as soon as they know that they can trust you, they’ll talk your heads off!  They’ll believe anything you say, so you learn to make up stories to make them laugh and to do things to make their day even better.  My secret, however, is that they’ve really helped turn my frown upside down.


So what is my purpose?

My purpose is to love, no matter what I’m doing or where I am or who you are.  It’s to make someone smile.  To be friendly.  You may not understand that and maybe you never will.  I often forget that but I hope that I can wake up each day with a renewed sense of purpose.  I realized this yesterday, and it was a great day!  I remembered this today and it was a great day!  So far, so good!

When it comes to my job, my purpose is to carry on a legacy that has been passed down from generation to generation.  As hard as it may be, it is a vital part of what we do and the services we provide.  So to all the misinformed customers, next time you think about shoving your hand in someones face and yelling at them, think about how you would feel if you were in their shoes.


So I suppose you could say the moral of this story is to love.  Love what you do.  Love who you meet.  Love who you interact with.  A simple smile can change it all.  Sure, things aren’t always going to be fun and games, but the best we can do is to love.  Enjoy your life.  Smile.  Be friendly.  All you need is love.  Love.

(Have I said it enough yet?)


“Jesus replied: ‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.” -Matthew 22:37-40

“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride; so I love you because I know no other way.” – Neruda, Soneto XVII

Daily Post: Day 26

•29. January. 2011 • Leave a Comment

Today’s Highs:

  • Lunch with the parents
  • Hung out with a couple friends
  • Was introduced to Eureka

Today’s Lows:

  • Didn’t get to see my nieces and nephew

Daily Post: Day 25

•28. January. 2011 • Leave a Comment

Today’s Highs:

  • Slept in
  • Babysat my 1 year o niece for a couple of hours
  • Got some more yarn to continue with new projects

Today’s Lows:

  • Still sick

Daily Post: Day 24

•27. January. 2011 • Leave a Comment

Today’s Highs:

  • Slept in
  • Finished another scarf
  • Saw my niece, sister, and bro-in-law while I was at work

Today’s Lows:

  • Had another headache
  • Kept getting dizzy
  • Probably getting sick again.
  • Had to leave work early

Daily Post: Day 23

•26. January. 2011 • Leave a Comment

Today’s Highs:

  • Finished yet another scarf I had been making
  • Started making a beanie for myself
  • Saw an old friend while I was at work

Today’s Lows:

  • Had a headache for a good part of my shift
  • Had computer problems all night

Food for thought

•25. January. 2011 • Leave a Comment

[Daily Post: Day 22]

A friend posted this earlier today.  I thought it fit very well with what I blogged about yesterday and felt it necessary to write about it today.

I’m starting to see more clearly that its not life’s situations that MAKE us happy, sad, lonely etc..its how we choose to react to them.  We can blame people, things, this world, even God for our so called “problems” but I really do think it comes down to us.  Will we choose to find the beauty in this life, and be brave enough to go out and find it?  I guess that comes down to you.  Because the truth is friend, you are beautiful, in every sense.  A creation, magnificent and unique with the capacity to change this world.  The world is too proud to admit it, but you were MADE to change it, not just to deal with it.  Don’t be afraid to be who you were meant to be.

He’s right.  I think we spend too much time trying to make ourselves feel bad (and trying to make others feel bad for us too).  We (I) tend to look for reasons to be angry, or sad, or whatever else.  Why is it that we gravitate towards these negative feelings?  We willingly put ourselves in these situations…all the while hoping someone will come along to save us, or help fix our problems.  The truth is, as far as I’m concerned, that I won’t be happy unless I let myself be.  My pastor this past week spoke about how his wife and him tell each other “count your blessings” each time one of these starts to get angry and forgets to look at the positive side of things.  For a long time, I felt like nothing was going the way I had hoped.  I was constantly angry, or sad, or resentful, but now I am trying to constantly remind myself to count my blessings.  There are a lot of great things in my life right now.  I’m lucky really.  Even though there might be some crap going on, I know I can work through that.  I’m a tough person, and can take pretty much anything, but I forget how to fight back sometimes.  Hopefully, that’s changing.  Only time will tell.

“Most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.” – Abraham Lincoln

“Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.” – Groucho Marx

“Hope is itself a species of happiness, and perhaps, the chief happiness which this world affords.” – Samuel Johnson

“If you want to be happy, set a goal that commands your thoughts, liberates your energy, and inspires your hopes.” – Andrew Carnegie

Daily Post: Day 21

•24. January. 2011 • Leave a Comment

Work was a bit frustrating today…it’s been getting exhausting trying to work so hard, and following the rules, when others don’t try nearly as hard and don’t follow the rules, yet still do better and get more ahead of me.  I think I did a great job staying positive all night, and working hard, but once the night was over and I was able to vent, I almost fell apart.  I’m glad I had a coworker who was there the entire night and was able to vouch for the fact that I was working hard all night, and not fooling around.  I messed up several months back, and I’ve never felt like I’ve been treated the same since.  This whole, staying positive and remaining patient thing that I’ve been adamant about following has really been testing my limits.  Although, I supposed that’s the point; I try to make it a daily choice to remain positive and be patient about the things in my life.

I know God has been testing me, and I think I’m finally starting to see what He is trying to teach me.  I still have a lot to work through and a lot to learn, but I’m finally getting somewhere…I hope.  A friends sister recently said, “I don’t want to pray for more patience because then God will give me a reason to need it!”  This was said in more of a jokingly way, but I found a lot of truth in it, and it made me realize that I had been praying for patience and He is definitely giving me many reasons to be patient.  I had been getting frustrated about a lot of things, not realizing that I needed to trust that God would guide me through it…that all I needed to do was be patient.  I had gotten my wish, to learn how to be patient, but I need to work hard to get my wish.  God doesn’t make things easy on us…and that is something many of us forget.  We just expect things to come to us and fall into our laps, but things never happen that way, and we usually learn that (or are reminded of it) the hard way.

So yeah, work was tough today, but the important thing is that I remained positive, and (mostly) patient.  There are a lot of things going on in my life right now, and hopefully some changes will take place soon enough…for the better.  For now, I’ll keep reminding myself to keep my eyes on the prize.

“Do not worry about tomorrow, for God is already there.”

“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you & not to harm you. Plans to give you hope & a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11

“Success is the ability to go from one failure to another with no loss of enthusiasm.” – Winston Churchill